Thursday, August 24, 2006

What happiness looked like HNT














Back in November I knew joy. I was in command. In control. Now? Not so much. In this pic I was sure that I had found my place in the world; that we would soon be married and have beautiful children together. I was so sure. I believed. Now? Not so much.

The race team won last night's sailboat race however and that's something. We kicked ass. My regulars will say "Eh, so what? You always win." Not always. Sometimes we get our asses handed to us. Kind of like life.

I recently told my bloggy friend Felicity "Your blog is so depressing! You're always miserable and bitching!" She was shocked. "What?" says she, "But I'm such a happy go lucky person!" Since then she's had a much better bloggy attitude even in the face of adversity. I'm impressed. I need to take my own advice. A musician friend described this as "Your Depressing Blog." Sheesh! Not so much! It's more like "The Blog of a Bi-Polar Bear." When I'm good I'm very very good and when I'm bad I'm horrid. Eh, what-the-fuck fuck fuckity fuck? HHNT.

33 comments:

Isolde said...

LOL, seems I can't help but be first! Yep, I am! Happy! Go! Lucky! It's true.
And you're a much adored pal.
And I sincerely hope that you find something that makes you very happy again, someday soon.
HHNT!

Tricia said...

But you're so damned cute and funny in person!

Humorous, witty, great conversationalist on everything from politics to religion. An incredible wink and an impish grin that left me begging to know exactly what you were thinking about.

All that and you have a depressing blog too! You're wonderful!

Bi Polar Bear? Does that mean you have a hairy ass? Not asking for myself, I'm asking for a friend.
Yeah, sure, right.

Happy HNT.

Philip said...

I hope things get better for you. Just remember that yesterday is gone, tomorrow's not here, and all you have is today. So make the most of it.

Happy HNT

212designs said...

roflmao

no throwing stones in a glass house!

sounds like the chance to write some pretty kick ass music if you ask me....

hhnt ; )

Jinsane said...

I often thjnk that my own blog is depressing, but I try to lighten up every once in a while.

I hope everything looks up for you!

HHNT!

Emily said...

Sounds like you need a hug for HNT, it may only be a cyber hug but I'm sending it!
Emily

Bekah said...

Happy HNT, things will come around.

Mommyof3 said...

Awww....it'll be OK again... HHNT anyway!!

Chelle said...

Hope things pick up!! We are all entitled to have a "depressing blog" once in awhile.....God knows mine has been!! lol
Chin up!!

HHNT ;)

Cosima said...

Things always turn around, don't be depressed. In the meanwhile, I blow you a kiss through cyberspace... flying... flying... smack-landed :)

Happy HNT!

Pink Lady said...

HHNT!

erika said...

I hope things turn around for you soon. HHNT!

barefoot_mistress said...

Angst is good art material!
HHNT Andy!

cinders said...

"What the fuck fuck fuckity fuck?"

Andy, you're playing my song!

Happy HNT! Now go burn that picture.

Spitfire said...

what the fuck fuckity fuck...you sound like me...

fuck.

TequilaGirl said...

*BIG HUGS*

Smile... it looks good on you! :)

HHNT!

betchacantguesswho said...

Out of control? A true captain is never out of control. Drop the jib and furl the mainsail. Get your bearings and hoist all sheets!! =) Oooo..Sailor talk makes me wet. lol. Happy HNT, Andy!

wordslut said...

Nice pic!

I fall into this, too. It’s all complain, complain, complain. Yet in person, I am happy.

As I once wrote, “I’m only happy when I’m not.”

Randi said...

I've definitely been where you are. Hope things get better.

Oº°‘¨t®ãg‘°ºO said...

Oh hun, my blog is bitch central. Especially the last week or so with being so bloody ill. You bitch all you need. It is a great photo.I'm still trying to get to everyone between bottles and diapers, lol. HHNT luv!

Chickie said...

I second what Cinders said! Happy HNT!

Hedonistic Pleasure Seeker said...

feel better soon ! HHNT!

Katie :) said...

It's so awesome that your sailboat won! :) awesome, awesome, awesome.
Relationships are hard man, but when it's right it'll be right. Keep that head up high, and damnit start smiling more :)

HHNT!

Sexy Duet said...

Sometimes it's hard to take your own advice. Stay strong :)
Happy HNT!

Ms SD

loz said...

aww, happiness is not a one-time thing. let it go, and you'll find it soon comes back again in multiple forms. congrats on the win! and happy hnt Andy :).

LEE ANN said...

I understand sadness and loneliness. I do, really I do!
I am sorry for you and for anyone that has to go through it. I do hope the sunshine breaks through!
I just always try to make the best of a situation, and sometimes it is difficult. I try to look for a positive every day, even if it is the smallest of things.
Best wishes sweet man!

Happy HNT!
~xo

Miss R said...

Congrats on the win! Dating is like riding a bike. You keep falling off until you finally get it right with the right person. Happiness will return one day. HHNT!

thru my eyes said...

Everything is cyclical, you will be happy again. Just hold on, better days are coming.
BTW, I haven't been back here since you saw George Thorogood (going thru a little blue period of my own and don't seem to get out much, but I have done some back reading tonight), I am glad you liked him, I thought you might.
His hard thumpin' rock just touches something inside, doesn't it???
Hope the skies brighten for you soon.

TME

Lelly said...

Cheer up chuck! :) HHNT!

Laurie said...

Congrats on the win, sailor dude!

I don't think that your blog is all depression, all the time.. it's more like a roller-coaster ride or something ;-)

Anyway, you know I love ya..

lime said...

belatted HHNT. i thought that last one was your hnt shot but oh well. it' s a twofer. ah yes, if we all took the advice we gave it woudl be a much different world eh?

SeaRabbit said...

Oupss... I'm late on my reading... You see, at my great age... I know now that we can't never be sure of anything... and it is the beauty of life somehow... You had something you 'thought' was your own due... but everyone is still free... and sometimes, the s.o. isn't as ours as we believe... but it is still a good thing, as it can only bring something better... Isn't great that the break up happened before marriage and kids?? Because, this is really awful...
I know it is not doing nothing about the pain... but at least, you can see that you have a bit less pain than you could...
And... from a Borderline to a Bi-polar, know that it doesn't last... the sun will shine again inside you... but there is a moment of grief to go through... before being able to see something good again...
Just hang to the certainty that bad times never last...

m_o_o_nspells said...

Here's to happier times, then...both past and future! Cheers...and HVeryBelatedHNT! ;o)