Sunday, November 26, 2006
Learning to keep my mouth SHUT
is something I truly need to do. My fluctuating mental and emotional state makes me unfit for human consumption more often than not, no matter how often I say "Eat Me." I walk around quoting Fight Club constantly because that's what this self-help-support-group culture makes me feel like. I'm getting it and it's working but sometimes it's just a drag. I retract my holiday curses. I realize everything happens for a reason and God (the divinity within, whatever) is paying attention and taking care of me. The universe is about balance and it's been so long since I've had any it's like wearing a new pair of shoes. Sure, I miss the shit stained worn out ugly ones because they were comfortable, but I sure wouldn't want to be seen in them any more. The shiny new ones are a little stiff but they sure look and feel a whole lot better. I've decided to stop playing in bars. I just can't take it any more. I don't belong there and I can't invite all my new friends. Henceforth I promote my own shows. Alcohol free music zones. Let's try that for a while.