Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Hope

I feel...different. Sorry, differently. Well, wait, both of those. Different than everyone else AND differently than before. I'm in love. That's new. I haven't truly been IN love in a long time.
Oh I've loved people and had people love me...this is hard to explain. I'm with someone new that I feel so close and connected to that I'm actually chasing all the ex's away. I'm no longer looking for the next thing. She's incredible. I look at other chicks and think "Pfft! My girlfriend's WAY hotter than you." And you know what? They eat that shit up. Nothing like being totally unavailable to make one more attractive to the opposite sex. I'll never understand that, but my experience has proven it to be truer than I ever could have imagined. Anyway, whatever, my karmic shit is completely clean. I told everyone everything about what's going on, I'm not cheating on anyone or doing any of my normal Modi Operandi and you know what? That feels good as hell. I feel like Jack Nicholsen in "As Good As It Gets"; she makes me want to be a better man. Amazingly, it seems to be working. Developing...
EDIT: As evidence of the above I totally forgot to mention that I got my boat in the water (with her help) and she lies (hopefully) peacefully at anchor as I type. I will visit her tonight. The boat that is. Shows where my head is at.

3 comments:

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ZooooM said...

I looked for your blog a couple of days ago, and could have sworn it wasn't here?

WHEEEE! Glad to see you've got yourself some happy relationship stuff going on.

Sydney said...

Good Luck! In Love is one of the better places I can think of to be.