Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Cruising to Lose Her


I must be making progress because I'm hardly even sore. My neck is a little stiff. I need to stretch more but there's no good space to do so at my stupid gym.I also need to switch to the cross trainer from the treadmill. My left foot is acting up. Busy day at work and I'm depressed about Brenda. Three days later the glow has faded and I'm empty and lonely again. Utterly unmotivated to do anything but drink.I can't make progress on my record. I can't paint. I can't go out because I'm too drunk to drive and too bummed to make conversation unless I'm too loaded to do so. I've become a prisoner of my own devices. Fuck.
From an old demo I'm thinking of resurrecting for the CD:
Cruising to Lose Her
I'm just a whore because I need it
Slit my wrists just to watch them bleed
I feed my demons alcohol
But all they ever want is more
I'm a liar
I deny her
I desire
To defy her
I'm a user
And abuser
And I am cruising to lose her

A prisoner of my devices
It's so nice just the way that rhymes
Times like these are overrated
It feels so fucking good I hate it
I'm a liar
I deny her
I desire
To defy her
I'm a user
And abuser
And I am cruising to lose her
'Cause I'm such a fucking loser

4 comments:

awaterpixie said...

Wow babes... that's a little bit of dark poetry.. hmmm.

::smooches::
mara

AndyT13 said...

I suppose. I'm in a dark place. It's an old tune from a couple of years ago when I waslo in a dark place. I love he rhyme scheme though. Unusual.

Bougie Black Boy said...

absolutely love the song! i defininitely gotta hear it!

ZooooM said...

Balance, my friend. You are finding your way, I think. It's so hard to see you hurting. I hope all of this works out for you.